Oh and here's a little video!

Coffee with S. and E.

I decided that I couldn't let my crazy schedule of family visits cramp our new connection and hinder our relationship building any more than it already has been, and we met for coffee today, a nanny day for me, and we had a great time, C, half of the duo of "Amazing Princesses" that I watch on Tuesdays was a good girl and asked,  "Who Sam?" on the drive to pick her sister up from school.

Well, isn't that just like a little kiddo to ask the million dollar question?  For now, I think we're just going to let our relationship grow, and not worry too much about labeling it.  We're calling ourselves the "outlaws" because our relationship sort of has no legal precedent, and we just really want what is best for these boys and we believe in our hearts that being together and knowing each other is just that.  God blessed our desire to meet, and what God makes possible, we are not about to get in the way of!!  We've decided to be totally honest about comfort zones and have given each other complete freedom to draw boundaries when we need to, and otherwise just stay out of God's way!

Photos I Love!!!

Jack and I started "Baby Splash" on Friday, he had a blast! Video to follow SOON!

 

BEST MONDAY EVER! (See previous post and the one Prior to that)

 

 Jer likes to take pics of us sleeping...

 

 Campin!

Still amazed by "yesterday"

I'm hiding out at a local cafe while (avoiding the bang bang of the roofers) while jack naps. I still love yesterday and it will remain a favorite memory forever.

Edit: (my fingers got tired of i phone typing)
I can still feel the slow motion realization,  seeing S's head in the shopping cart and thinking, he has a good head, and such fun spiky hair! Recognizing E. but not being able to place her, (this happens to me alllll the time because I used to meet 100 people a week at the dentist office and they never remembered me because my mask blocked my good looks LOL)

I said in a comment to Jamie, that it was the GRAVITY of realizing that H's two boys were in the same airspace at the same time.  My longing for her grew tenfold.  I miss that woman, I want her to see the family she helped create.  The boys have separate families, but we have formed a new kind of family, one that is related only by her.  What can you call that but love? Someday she will decide that she wants or needs to see her boys, and she will find a loving and accepting extended family waiting for her with open and eager arms.

Some people will not understand. My mother doesn't get it. Some people will think we are out of our minds, but who are we to stand in God's way?  I suddenly understand how Missionaries must feel.  People say to them: "I just couldn't live that way!"  I suddenly see their faith.  They live their lives "Wide Open" as Rebekah from Heart Cries would say.  We are all meant to live wide open to God, we shouldn't fear what He has for us, because for what He ordains, He provides means for.  What is He knocking on your heart about?

I know when I first met E and her husband, I felt God's impression on me that they were important people.  I liked them and wanted to know them, I wish now that I had had the guts to just break the "we are all waiting for the same baby" tension and just have invited them over for dinner that week, we would have had a head start on all of this!  But, God's timing is His, and I believe we had our hearts guarded for our own process as well as H's.  I am just so thrilled at the possibilities!  We can have so much fun together! And our boys have the opportunity to know each other with out awkward mommies and daddies freaking out and pushing them together but not wanting to be friends!

God is just sooooo good.

GOD! You are so good to us, you create your world with such decadence. You give such fantastic gifts.  Thank you for my son, thank you for E's son, thank you for H and her love for her sons!  Thank you for revealing your plans in your time so I can feel like this!  Thank you for the miracle of open adoption and for the joy of trailblazing new family ties.  Thank you for your Son, and making it possible to have brothers and sisters in faith.
AMEN!

Imagine Meeting you Here...in the produce aisle!

Jack and I met two very special people today!  And all by God's design and in His timing.

I've wanted to meet Jack's birthmother's other son and his family for sometime now, but getting up my courage to jump in and do it was taking too long for God's taste apparently  because today, at the supermarket, in my  "I'm running errands after swimming and before going home to put make up on clothes" Our eyes locked, I recalled her face from the past at our initiation and then again at training...I realised that the little boy in the cart was HIM!!!!!  H's other son!  And E. Who I've been so ready but not ready to meet was smiling at me and asking, "are you Kelley?" as I was commenting on the cuteness of her little guy's hair, it all seemed to happen at the same time, a totally anonymous mom converstation and the realization that I KNEW THEM
The awesome thing? She was as excited as I am!  Neither of us wanted to leave the store!
I made the produce guy take a picture, I'm sure he thought we were nuts.

Open adoption doesn't always mean open with the birthmom, sometimes it means "Open minded to your definition of family"  Because I think our family just grew.